When It Was

It already makes me feel old to say I remember the world before instagram or hashtags, or even facebook (let alone the internet), even though I’ve spent the majority of my life so far without instagram or twitter or facebook, and even the internet – which makes me feel like Gandalf in this sentence. But I had the privilege of growing up in the 80’s/90’s as the last generation who remembers a world glorious as this one, where we managed one self and that was our physical one. To make things more horrifying, most of these things didn’t even exist seven years ago in 2008 (no instagram or twitter, no hashtags, and facebook was still in infantile stages and mostly for crazy social outcasts who didn’t have a myspace account); this is how the world was just seven short years and an eternity ago.  This was the distant past – when I picked up my life and moved it from Redwood trees to Raider Nation – when I began what I called “the city chapter” and found myself stumbling into a strange future.

I find myself longing these days, often, for a life before this time when we didnt carry the world in our pockets; where if we woke up alone, we were actually alone until we chose to make contact with the world – instead of reaching for a portal on the nightstand where the world impatiently begs our response; where there wasnt a separate identity hiding in the palm of everyone’s hand, a separate self needing to be managed; where I could disappear for a day without communication and not set loved ones into crisis mode. And here I go feeling old again, already – longing for good ol’ days.

How the world has changed in just seven years. And how strange it is.

4 thoughts on “When It Was”

  1. Nice piece… I can relate to this a lot.. its fluid.. articulate.. “instead of reaching for a portal…” very nice… I grew up in the bay but am living on the outskirts now way up in the mountains for those exact reasons. The only problem is finding someone to share it with. It’s crazy amazing how maleable we all are… how in 7 years they could channel everyones existence thru a screen… I don’t know… may these strange changes lead us to whatever it is we are searching for. I’ll be following your blog.

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      1. I want mountains. .. that’s like my mantra… I also think those are some good intentions to have but clearly I’m biased… I’m nestled @ 2500 ft in the El Dorado hills… snow is melting away.. can’t recommend the area enough I’m in love, huge change from the bay / Cruz

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  2. i had the feeling you were that direction. beautiful over there. originally im from humboldt so i miss the forest in a huge way. actually just visited and took hikes in the pouring rain through the woods, it couldnt have been better. im currently considering how/when/where to extricate to next chapter- somewhere with mountains.


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